So today there was a shooting at Fort Hood, TX.. where we are stationed.. luckily we do not live on post.. or I would've had a meltdown.. and LUCKILY my husband was in the field.. so he was not involved in any of it.. in any way. 13 people have died so far.. and 30 others were injured. Hopefully nothing happens to them either. I feel bad for the families who lost anyone.. and the ones that have to deal with the injuries of the others. To think that someone, a psychiatrist, who helped those who were going to lose their own minds.. lost his.. to hurt those that he had helped before.. makes me want to cry.. but it shows..that ANYONE can lose it.. at anytime.. not just those that have mental problems, but also those that serve to protect us and our country and the stress that wars and conflicts put on them is major.. I know.. I have to deal with it everyday. Having my husband come home and be mad, sad, or flat out hostile sometimes.. because of what the military does to him.. and what he had to do overseas. It puts a strain on things, because I don't know what he's going through.. or how he feels. I just have to deal with it.. and try to help in my own way. Try to comfort him when I know it won't do any good because the next day will be the same. I get to deal with him kneeing me in his sleep.. and yelling at me in his sleep.. and stealing the covers (that part not from war.. he just does that!!) and him waking up with nightmares about shooting and killing people.
I think this is making me more sad.. I'm done.. Goodnight. Sorry for rambling.